Hanging my head...

Well the week went good....BUT then the weekend hit. Football game on Friday. Poker night on Saturday then Summerslam on Sunday. Too much to eat...too much to drink.
 
    Now I'm terrified to step on that scale again. I was down 3 lbs as of last Wednesday but I know just by looking that I'm back up. Next weekend is nothing so I should have 2 good weeks with nothing to throw me off track. It's always so hard to just get back at it. I know I can do this. I just feel a little deflated lately. No willpower to think of...so I'm trying hard to dig it out!!!

Getting back into the swing of things....

Getting back into the swing of things seems to be the story of my life...

Summer always rolls around and my life turns into a chaotic mess...working around all the kids schedules mine seems to fall by the wayside. I have tried to stay up with my workout routines but some days it was nonexistent. Which put me in an awful mood some days. Then everyone is "Why are you so bitchy?" I try really hard to explain it to no avail. I'm just wasting my time and energy. So now I have spent the last  week catching up on me and ignoring every thing else...well not everything. It's kind of hard to ignore a 6 yr old that won't stop or leave me alone for 5 minutes. So we came up with a deal that if mommy has her earphones in then it's mommy time...worked a little better.

We came back from 2 weeks at the lake on Aug 4. I didn't step on the scale until the 6th. Was up 7.4 lbs. Which happens every year because it becomes a free for all for a couple weeks. Getting in everything that I haven't eaten in a very long time. And having it all in abundance. Planned and accepted.

So this week I'm down 4 lbs. Should be back to normal next week. It would have been easier if all the kids weren't home. A little more time to work out...and plan my meals a little better...but I'll take it and keep working at it.

So this week - back to spin at least 4X this week. I really want to get to BodyCombat but not sure if that's in the cards. Yoga at least 2X...I'm feeling so tight...

So here's to sticking to a plan without too many distractions....right...

June Goals...Update!!!

June has always been my workout harder and dig deeper month...we camp a lot in July and August. This year I will do more because I CAN!!! Hiking, biking, 2 rock climbs and a sky dive...it's going to be a good summer !!!!

1. Workouts - keep to schedule with my pump program(ST)...fell off the program for a bit now...it's time to get back to it...
*****I only hit it 1X this week...I know it's because I do ST while I'm on my spin bike and I'm done before I even get to PUMP...

2. BodyBalance or yoga warrior - 2 or 3X a week...
*****I hit them both 1X...yoga warrior is a killer...ouch!!

3. BodyCombat 3X a week - having a tough time getting back to it.
*****Only 1X...I wanted to a few times but couldn't manage it time wise...so sad...BUT there's always next week...

4. Morning Workouts - I really need to get this back on track!!
*****This is getting so much better...trying to have spin or combat done by lunch, sure has made life a little easier...

5. DIET - Really tracking and reviewing my food intake. Haven't been eating enough lately.
*****So I did start carb cycling again...and it's going alright. The scale is still inching down...but I did just start so I guess we'll see...

6. NO SNACKING - after 8pm...I've been really good for 7 days now. Need to keep it going.
*****A few slips but not enough to cry about...so that's good.

I am having a tough time sleeping some nights and am hoping it's just because I have been feeling a little overwhelmed...there's just so much going on. We have 6 birthdays this month and 2 of them I'm throwing...plus all the soccer games and practices. Plus trying to figure out where the money is coming from to cover some of it....uuuhhhggggg

So this month is a little soccer nuts...3 games a week plus a practice and 2 tourneys...yikes!!!
Will work through it all and pretty sure I will survive but it's going to take a lot of planning and organizing to get through it all!!!!


I have aligned some goals with my goals for BLC...on track and NO EXCUSES!!!

August Wrap -up!!!!!

I keep losing track of my days...it seems they just keep running together. Friday already...

Day 13 of Insanity done...Pure cardio - 60 minutes...uuuhhhggg - BUT 2 days of REST now

It was a pretty good week, busy but good...4 dentist appointments, 2 physicals, a new pink cast, and a sleep apnea test all done...plus getting a 5 year old to pee in a cup...she couldn't stop laughing so I'm sure you all know how that went

Weaknesses - tracking my food...I just can't seem to get back into it. Am doing good today though

Strength - I am going with...my ability to deal with my schedule being thrown into turmoil...I usually don't deal well with that...Proud of myself


Really liked getting points for spending time with my family...because otherwise I would have just ignored them like that's even possible!!!

So I did accomplish a couple of my goals...SORT OF..

1. I did an advanced yoga class rather then and advanced spin class...
2. I am organized for back to school...I know what I need to still buy...that's something...

Goals for the rest of September challenge:

1. Track all my food
2. Take an advanced spin class
3. Get my household organizer re-organized for back to school...
4. Redo my whiteboard with all the kids chores...

All in all a great week and here's hoping for an weigh in on Monday

A new day...

The idea of all of this is intimidating...it's going to be fighting all theses cravings. I threw what I could out but some of it is hubbies and he's just not ready to give it all up. So the days are not easy and the nights are even harder...
So I will just keep plugging on and trying my best. I did have 4 cheezies am not a big fan of chocolate, I rarely have it, but it never fails every time I start cutting out stuff...I crave chocolate. The one thing I really don't care for. I've been eating way to many nuts...but there better then what I could be eating.

So all in all it's been an OK two days...

The rest of this week is going to be stressful so I guess we will see how I fair...

Wish me luck...

Great weekend...

Well it was Wrestlemania 25 this weekend. That says it all...my diet went out the window. Chicken wings...one good, one bad, dried ribs, veggies...not bad so far, shrimp with a little cocktail sauce...still doing good. Had some garlic sausage and cheese and a few tortilla chips. The bad part was the booze. Tried to stick to a few vodka's and diet Pepsi but there was some new VEX Bananatini's ...had to try it. Well 1 turned into 4...definitely MY BAD...

All else is good. About as packed as were going to get for now...it's nice to see such an empty basement. Can't wait...

Make it a good one...

Another week gone by...

I can't believe were into spring break...The kids are home which throws my whole routine into chaos. I can't seem to find time to do anything around here, never mind more cleaning, more meals to cook and more refereeing. They are absolutely driving me nuts. Life...who knew. I never thought it could get this crazy, busy all the time, nothing is ever clean for more then 30 minutes. No time to just sit and relax...except after the kids go to bed and by then I'm so tired I just want to go to bed...I feel like I'm on a merry go round that just won't slow down or stop to let me off.

Anyway...I find I'm not eating on schedule, which always leave it's mark. I'm not going near that scale until...the next time I weigh in. Friday I guess, maybe, we'll see...ahhhh I don't know. I guess we'll see when Friday gets here. So nothing is planned for the rest of the week, which is not a good thing. I started this week with everything planned, all meals and what I needed to accomplish everyday. I have the Salvation Army picking up on Thursday and I still have clothes to go through in the basement, which should be done already according to my plan. Why do all my plans go out the window....?????

Ah, life goes on...
Make it a good one...

Feeling Better...

Well this whole week has been a little off. Feeling better...then not so good, it's been like that all week. Yesterday I woke feeling so much better though and that lasted all day. Today I am back...I feel like me again. I did my weigh in.

Down 2.6lbs
28.5 lbs to go.

Probably due to me being sick and not eating as much as I should have been. Anyway...back to the grindstone. I have been so craving spaghetti and meatball stoup...I think I'll do that tonight and head back to total low carb tomorrow. The rest of the week hasn't been anything spectacular. Really have to start writing everyday again. Time just seems to get away from me. With all the packing and organizing...oh and the shopping. Our dining room is loaded with stuff. We got rid of our old table...and I mean old...lol Now we have a new set of bunk beds and 2 loft beds from Ikea...but I found them second hand and they look brand new...half price. We have a new table sitting in it's box. All my new pots and pans are boxed up. I bought matching duvet covers and pillowcases for the girls room.

I talked my daughter out of painting her room green...yay me. I told her she could by pillows and her duvet cover and maybe a rug in green. My son doesn't care about the color as long as it isn't pink, which it is right now...lol. I'm still trying to figure out how to fit the bunks, 2 dressers and a bookshelf into the girls room. I don't think there going to fit. I guess we'll see.

That's all for now...
Make it a good one...

24 hr flu

Well it went through all the kids who was I to think it would skip me. I just figured after a week of cleaning up and taking care of 4 sick kids one after another I would get a break. Well my break was Saturday. Hubby and I left the kids with Gramma and went out with some friends. Got home late as usual...3:20am. Well I woke at 5:38am and headed for the bathroom. Well what a horrible day. I felt so sorry for my kids because I didn't realize just how much there little tummies were hurting. It was awful and I just wanted to die...really.

Woke up this morning a little better. Really light headed...explainable, couldn't even keep water down. Tummies still a little queasy, so the thought of food is not very appetizing. Will think about eating later. Put down some water just not over doing it today. Still drinking the same cup of coffee I started at 8 this morning. The day can only get better right.

Oh god and to top everything off, my 3 year old - Dilyn - decided on Saturday while Gramma was NOT watching her...GRRRRRRR. That her bangs were too long. We had this problem a year ago and have kept the scissors up in the cupboard...well someone forgot to put them up. And voila a new choppy do:(

All for now...
Make it a good one...

It's been a week, I can't believe it's already Friday. Where did the week go. I had weighed in on Monday and had gained 4 pnds...uuuhhhhgggg. I have been really good this week and I'm now down those four pounds...so YAY!!!!!

Getting so excited....1 month till we move!!!! Have spent the week packing...I know we have a month to pack but we have 12 years of junk...ooops I mean stuff to go through...lol

Can't wait for all of this to be over with and moved in. Wanna move...wanna move!!!

Anyway...all the rest is great...

Make it a good one:)

We got the house...

Thank you all for your well wishes...

We got the house...YAY! Now comes the packing and organizing and down sizing. Living in the same place for 10 years sure accumulates a lot of crap. Especially the basement, it seems that everything we didn't want got put down there. Everything we didn't know what to do with got put down there. Everything we have been meaning to get rid of...like my sons clothes, 10 years worth. I also have a ton of clothes from the girls. I need to figure out which ones I want to get rid of and which ones I want to pack away for my other 2 daughters. Oh so much to organize...I don't even know where to start. Ohhhh....and then on top of it all, we have boxes of canning stuff that came from my mother-in-law. Why she dumped it here is beyond me...I don't can...I will never can. I think she had it in her head that she would come over here and WE would do some canning. She always canned a ton of cabbage leaves for cabbage rolls. She just seems to forget that I have 4 KIDS!!!!! Who has time to can? Not me:)

I am looking forward to throwing out some dressers and our table and chairs. All new ones yay:)

I really haven't been doing to great with my low carb eating. I think I am going to skip my weigh in tomorrow. Next week I'll go back to my strict eating and get the couple pounds, I'm sure I gained...off!! I guess we'll see what stress next week brings...hopefully none...except all the packing that needs to done.

Make it a good one:)

Been a while...

I think I've been avoiding writing, just like I seem to be avoiding a lot of stuff. I can't seem to keep to my diet...it's just the house thing. It's our dream and our dream house. It's something I want so badly for my family and the not knowing is killing me, my hubby too. I can feel my anxiety...panic attacks. It's crazy, I have never felt like this before.

So my eating isn't crazy or anything...I'm just not eating. A little here and there, but I did have some chips yesterday...just a few. I find that I want to eat, I make the food but then I'm not hungry. A few bites and I'm done. I am craving pasta, haven't had that craving if a while. I think I'll just wing it this week and get right back on plan when all this house stuff is over. Till then the thought of eating is repulsive. I know it will be over soon, but till it is....my life is up in the air.

The inspection was done yesterday. there was a crack in the foundation, so the sellers knocked back the price so we could get it fixed. Other then that it's all cosmetic. A bit of work and it's all good...now it's the stupid bank...why are they taking so long to get back to us. We have really never had much good luck with financial issues. Things have been changing though. The past few years have been good.

It's hard to get past though...the feeling of waiting for the other shoe to drop.

Make it a good one:)

Not eating...

So I have been having problems eating...I know it's stress and nerves. We have fallen in love with a house and made a bid on it. That's why I'm not eating, the thought of food upsets my stomach. All I want is a smoke and I quit a year ago...funny the way the body works and your mind thinks when your completely stressed out. We do the offer counter offer thing tomorrow. So hopefully all will go well and then things will calm a bit...but only a bit. We still have the inspection which should go good but we know there are a few things that are iffy...Ahhhhhhhhh...so much roaming around in my tired brain. Haven't been sleeping either...4 a night for the past 2 nights. 6 the night before that. I keep telling myself not to worry so much but I have always been a bit of a worry wart, and when were talking such big money...well it just plain freaks me out...anyway will keep you updated...cross your fingers...:D

Make it a good one:)

A little stressed...

I do feel a little stressed lately. Everyone kept telling me it was fun to look for houses...so why am I not having any fun? Maybe when I can actually find a few that I like. There are always parts I like in every house, but finding a house that I like more then 20% of... is near impossible. It's stressing me out...and I'm eating too many almonds.

Anyway...I did get on the bike today but only for 20 minutes...my little one woke early and wasn't feeling well...so that was the end of that. The kids have teacher's convention for the next 2 days so it might be hard to get time, but I will do it:)

Teriyaki steak tonight. Not sure yet...I only had dark soy sauce so I mixed in some water but it still smells very potent, I guess we'll see...

So that's it for now...
Make it a good one:)

Weekend went well...

I did make a promise to go back to exercising...so that has been my new goal for this week. I decided to go back to my stationary bike since I've never really had to many problems getting my butt on it. So I put in 30 minutes yesterday and 45 minutes today....YAY!!

The weekend went pretty good. I had a few things I probably shouldn't have, but I found if I don't have a little of that something I'm really craving...I binge sometimes. So I had 2 cabbage rolls and a few pea pods. Otherwise I did good...skipped dessert and had some almonds instead...I always keep a few snack bags in my purse.

It was a really nice weekend. I've really missed Auntie Emily it was nice to see her again. I did have a few moments of anger...My sister and brother in law were there as well and talking about the house their going to put an offer on. You would think I would be happy for them, but I wasn't. I felt angry. Chris and I have been talking about a house(our first since August last year. We started really looking in September. We decided to wait until now. With 4 kids we are trying to really stay within our budget. Under 280K would be nice, and in they walk telling us about the house their buying...320K. I know they are a double income family with no kids but for some reason it really pissed me off. I'm still trying to figure out why. I want to chalk it up to jealousy but I really don't think it is. I think it's just that I always start to feel like second best. That nothing I ever do will be quite good enough. When we finally do get a house you know it just won't be as good as theirs is. It's always been like this...you think I would be used to it by now. Ahhhhh....whatever:)

Anyway...that's all for now...
Make it a good one:)

Dinner was great...

So the murder mystery(A feast to die for...) was wonderful. The food was so good. BBQ cedar plank salmon, rice, carrots(not a big fan), appetizers, and a salad course. Plus dessert(only had a couple bites). A different wine with every course. I don't drink wine at all...it's the smell. Tammy went all out. It was a great. Like I said great food and great company, can't beat an evening like that:)

Today we go to Auntie Emily's so we'll see how that goes. It will be nice to see her again, it's been a while.

So bayoubabe asked what kind of Lasagna I made:

Zucchini Lasagna
2 1/2 cups zucchini sliced 1/4 inch thick (about 2 medium)
1/2 pound lean ground beef (I use 1 lb.)
1/4 cup onion chopped
2 small tomatoes cut up(I used a 28oz can of diced)
1 (6 ounce) can tomato paste
1 garlic clove minced
1/2 teaspoon dried oregano
1/2 teaspoon dried basil
1/4 teaspoon dried thyme
1/4 cup water
1/8 teaspoon pepper
1 egg
3/4 cup cottage cheese (or ricotta)
1/2 cup mozzarella cheese shredded (I use 8 oz. divided)

I cook zucchini until tender, drain and set aside. Make sauce and let simmer 10 minutes. Then layer like normal lasagna. The zucchini doesn't cover like noodles, I just split the amount so I have some for each layer. Bake at 375 F for 30-40 minutes. I broil for a few minutes because I like the cheese on top a little crusty. I let it sit for about 15 minutes then cut. It is wonderful.


That's all for now.
Make it a good one:)

weigh in...week 6

So it wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be...

Weight down 1.8 lbs

I actually can't believe it. I really did think it was going to be a gain. I was doing the happy dance right there in the bathroom. Then I came downstairs and Chris told me he only lost .2. So I avoided telling him. Actually felt a little bad...but just a little...lol.

So this weekend will be a write off..OK not a total write off. Will avoid what I can but I need to eat something. We have also been invited to our Aunt's house for supper on Sunday. I didn't want to go because it's one more supper off plan, but I feel bad because we haven't see her in 6 weeks since our Uncle passed away. Just can't say no. But Monday morning back on plan and hopefully the weekend won't be too bad.

So today is a nice relaxing day...need to finish a load of laundry. Making a zucchini lasagna for supper....yuuuummmm. Watch a movie tonight. Not sure which one we have a few.

So a busy weekend...might not post till Monday.
Make it a good one:)

Exercise!!!!!

Well, I think it's finally hit me. I need to get back to exercising. I'm going to start with a few days a week. I used to be such a junkie when it came to working out. It was a daily thing for about 2 hrs every morning...2 hours only because it never seemed like I did enough.

The only difference now...is I have 4 kids not 3 and Dilyn has decided that she needs to get up by 8 am or she might miss something. She has also decided to nap by 10am usually. I think I'll work me time in to there and forget about the housework. I'll just do that in between everything else. If it doesn't work I will have to try and think of a plan B. I've never been very good at plan B's though. I tend to just say it won't work and leave it at that. NOT this time...I can do this and I will do this.

Willpower is not my strong suit, never really has been. I guess that's why I'm so amazed that I'm not having too many problems. Really was expecting it to be a lot harder in the beginning...like it was the first time I did this. I think it really helped that hubby is doing it with me. It was hard last time because he wasn't on it with me...and his favorite snack(almost every night) was Jalapeno Dorito's...yuuuummmmm. So now that there are no dorito's or any other junk in the house, it is so much easier to do the low carb thing...

All for now
Make it a good one:)

Back To The Grindstone...

So I cheated a little this weekend...this whole weekend felt like a food fest. With wrestling on Sunday...that had Swiss steak over egg noodles and then we went out for supper at Bonanza yesterday for family day. There buffet is soooooo good. Lots of meat and that's what I love, but I also love their roast potatoes. I only had a few though and a couple spring rolls.

So back on program today and I'm not going near that scale till Friday. I have to say that I really don't feel that well today, totally my fault though. So I hang my head. OK I'm done...back to plan and at least today I will probably stick to protein shakes till supper anyway. Now what to make for supper? Will have to think about that one...

Need to try and get in a workout today...might just do a couple 10 minute trainers instead. I have zero desire to workout today. Really need to work on my motivation...

That's it for now
Make it a good one:)

Weigh in...5 weeks

Well...Friday the 13th has to say it all!!!!

Actually I was surprised...between feeling like I was hit by a bus and not being able to stand up too fast or I would end up on my butt. It wasn't too bad of a weigh in.

Weight - down .09 lbs

Works for me...since I really didn't work out at all this week. Still a little light headed once in a while but usually only when I bend over....so I just won't do that...lol

So I will stick to plan as best I can this weekend, which will be virtually impossible on Sunday because it is PPV wrestling. A few drinks a big salad and the best wings ever(except they have a little breading...I won't eat too many:)

The open house last night with Darian was good...she loved the school...only problem with that is I really want her in the 2nd junior high were going to next week...or the week after. She is very shy and really doesn't show much confidence in herself outside the home. Which actually baffles me, because at home she is a different kid. Anyway the second school is an all girls school which has classes specifically for girls. Teaching them leadership skills, and confidence building skills. I really think she needs that. I guess we'll see because I don't want to make her go to a school that she really doesn't want to be at either.

So tomorrow is valentines day...I did find a recipe for some mini cheesecakes. Will make those for dessert tomorrow. Still need to pick up the kids books for their valentines gifts. We cut out the candy 2 years ago. It got out of control with stuff from us, both Grandma's and their Aunt. So we put our foot down with everyone. They usually only get something small now, so it works out better for everyone.

I have to tell bayoubabe that my life is more then active most days it's INSANE...so why do I need to workout? LOL

I have to add that Dentist's are worse then Doctor's, Harry!!!Uhhhgggggg

All for now
Make it a good one:)