3rd Chemo done...and Good News!!

So we found out that my body is accepting full doses of the chemo and won't have to be split...

So I was cut from the 8 treatments they thought I might have to do down to 4!!! Can you whoop, whoop with me...do a little happy dance!!

Best news I heard this year...

So 3rd treatment was yesterday...only 1 more to go on May 9th...

I have an appointment with the radiologist on April 28th...to discuss the radiation...not sure on how long after chemo you can do it...wouldn't mind if they put it off a bit...so I can enjoy the camping season...

It sure is nice to actually see an end in sight...

Doing alright so far...seem to have a cold again...grrrr...was fine yesterday...headache and tired...nausea not to bad yet but stomach is sure bubbling...guess we'll see...

((HUGS))

Sporting the crazy bald look...lol!!

2nd Chemo...much easier so far!!

  Well we got the penthouse yesterday at the Cross…it was smaller and much quieter…the nurse was a little frantic when we arrived…the others were on break…but we were made comfortable as always…the nurses are always so wonderful there…

I was left with a bit of a mark still from my last I.V…all the fishing…she used the vein on the top of my arm…she kept saying ” oh this is going to be tricky…like three times” I gritted my teeth and she was literally done t was so in 5 seconds…It was so AWESOME…never in my life…my heart rate had jumped to 108 i was so worried…

With that done all went smoothly…no allergic reaction…woohoo…easy peasy…then home…not to bad most of the night…no appetite…mouth feels like cotton...had to take the emergency anti nausea pill…still upset when I went to bed…took a sleeping pill…and it was still after 2 am before I slept…was sick a couple times in the night…that was new…woke up at 10am and I feel like I’m in a fog…still nauseous but it could be worse…

So hubby took the kids out and I’m gonna crash!!

Ohh…Doc was so awesome…got morphine for the joint pain this time around….sleeping pills and the medicated mouthwash….

I also shaved my head last week…all gone…used to it now…and am actually enjoying it!! Who knew ??

I need a seatbelt for my Wagon...

I’m sure a lot of people fall off the wagon….and I’m sure that most of us get right back on…

That was my day yesterday…Wednesday’s have always been a reward day…It’s weigh in day for my BLC group on Sparkpeople…so I have always taken it as a day to boost my carbs for a meal or 2 in the morning. Sometimes a few chips or something if that’s what I’m craving…It’s a day that helps me stay strong for the rest of the week…

Woke up…weighed in…down .2

Story of how these past few weeks are going…up, down, up, down…can’t call it a plateau…the scale is moving…seems to up more then down lately. I keep telling myself that maybe KETO just isn’t working for me. All I wanted for my cheat day was oatmeal…it was a fierce craving…it was so good…and I felt so good during my morning workout…could have gone for hours…I swear…

I have never been a huge breakfast…I’m a bulletproof coffee kinda gal…

So I decided this week to add in oatmeal(steel cut) 1/4 cup dry for breakfast every morning…before 9…we’ll see on Saturday for my weekend weigh in…and go from there…

I also had a banana…forgot what they even tasted like…and 2 spoons of gravy on my meatloaf…that too was yummy…and some S&V chips…not a bad trip off the wagon…could have been really bad since there are 3 bags of Halloween candy sitting there calling my name…lol

I hope you all have an AWESOME HALLOWEEN!!!!!   Be Good!!!

I need to get back on track...

You know…I think about writing everyday but then I always just put it off…

I think it would be good for me to get everything down in writing…putting it all out there, so I know what I need to do to accomplish certain goals. I’m always thinking if I do this or do that…it would be a lot easier to see exactly where I am heading…

I need to put my foot down and just do it…no more putting it off…so I AM putting a reminder on my phone to go off everyday and make me get something down or something accomplished…anything, it doesn’t have to be a lot…so I did make a dream board with my 12 week goals…
So that’s where I’m starting…motivation and consistency are going to be a huge challenge for me…I have been very unmotivated lately…so I also started BODYROCK.TV’s Real time Challenge with Lisa and I absolutely LOVE it but mind you I’m only on Day 2…lol

We’ll see how much I love it on Day 10…

So Starting weight – 148.6

Working on the Plan...

So I'm working on the plan and it's still on track...

Step 1: Excellent...have NOT brought one single thing into the house. The kids didn't say a word about anything...good thing they like popcorn because that
 fruit and veggies are the only things for snacks in the house.

Step 2: I have only missed tracking for 1 day...and only off on my macro's 1 day too...wasn't feeling well.

Step 3: Workouts are still the same but I did get in a couple of kettlebell workouts...

So now I still have to get my workouts in order...so really need to work on step 3...

Now onto...

Step 4: I'm going to have to combine this with step 2...I may have did good on the tracking and staying in my macro's...BUT it still wasn't always the right
 food. So I'm going to have to dig deep just to get back on track...stay with in my macro's and stay to food that makes me feel good.

Step 5: Well that's a good question...
So far so good...taking it slowly and not calling myself every name in the book when I fall off plan a little bit...set my mind at the 75% mark and as long as I hit that...no complaints....

FINDING my motivation and will power...

So I’ve been going over everything that’s been going on lately and have decided that it’s time to work on finding my motivation and will power…it seems that I’ve been looking for it for a long time it’s just taken me a while, a long while to face it.

So where do you start…it seems like a 100 step process that I’m just not prepared for…so it’s going to be  one step at a time…

For me…

Step 1: Clean out the cupboards…this really wasn’t hard just a little heartbreaking…but bye bye junk…anything and everything is in the garbage…bag is tied and it’s sitting there waiting for the garbage man. Kids are going to have a bit of a fit but I’m sure it won’t last long…it never does.

So with step 1 accomplished it’s on to step 2…

Step 2: Tracking ALL food…it’s not that I ever really stopped tracking but I was just rounding and guessing at about 75% of it…so it’s time to pull the scale out again and start tracking everything. I need to know exactly what I’m eating to figure out exactly what’s going on.

Step 3: Workouts…I have been working out but have been stuck in a spin bike rut. I love it BUT I need to start switching it up again. I haven’t went to BodyCombat or BodyPump for a long time now and I really do need it. It always excited me and made me feel good…but the lazy side has taken over and I need to pack her up and ship her out!!!

Step 4:  STILL THINKING… needing ideas…
So we ended a 4 day flu lock down on Monday…it ran through the whole family…literally!! I spent a full 48 hrs in bed…well and the bathroom…lol…finally started moving around on Sunday night and am just starting to feel like myself again…except for the headaches. They are dragging out off and on for the past few days.

So that’s the start of my plan…still need to work on more but the basics are there…I will be finding my motivation and will power…it can’t hide forever!!!

Hanging my head...

Well the week went good....BUT then the weekend hit. Football game on Friday. Poker night on Saturday then Summerslam on Sunday. Too much to eat...too much to drink.
 
    Now I'm terrified to step on that scale again. I was down 3 lbs as of last Wednesday but I know just by looking that I'm back up. Next weekend is nothing so I should have 2 good weeks with nothing to throw me off track. It's always so hard to just get back at it. I know I can do this. I just feel a little deflated lately. No willpower to think of...so I'm trying hard to dig it out!!!

June Goals...Update!!!

June has always been my workout harder and dig deeper month...we camp a lot in July and August. This year I will do more because I CAN!!! Hiking, biking, 2 rock climbs and a sky dive...it's going to be a good summer !!!!

1. Workouts - keep to schedule with my pump program(ST)...fell off the program for a bit now...it's time to get back to it...
*****I only hit it 1X this week...I know it's because I do ST while I'm on my spin bike and I'm done before I even get to PUMP...

2. BodyBalance or yoga warrior - 2 or 3X a week...
*****I hit them both 1X...yoga warrior is a killer...ouch!!

3. BodyCombat 3X a week - having a tough time getting back to it.
*****Only 1X...I wanted to a few times but couldn't manage it time wise...so sad...BUT there's always next week...

4. Morning Workouts - I really need to get this back on track!!
*****This is getting so much better...trying to have spin or combat done by lunch, sure has made life a little easier...

5. DIET - Really tracking and reviewing my food intake. Haven't been eating enough lately.
*****So I did start carb cycling again...and it's going alright. The scale is still inching down...but I did just start so I guess we'll see...

6. NO SNACKING - after 8pm...I've been really good for 7 days now. Need to keep it going.
*****A few slips but not enough to cry about...so that's good.

I am having a tough time sleeping some nights and am hoping it's just because I have been feeling a little overwhelmed...there's just so much going on. We have 6 birthdays this month and 2 of them I'm throwing...plus all the soccer games and practices. Plus trying to figure out where the money is coming from to cover some of it....uuuhhhggggg

So this month is a little soccer nuts...3 games a week plus a practice and 2 tourneys...yikes!!!
Will work through it all and pretty sure I will survive but it's going to take a lot of planning and organizing to get through it all!!!!


I have aligned some goals with my goals for BLC...on track and NO EXCUSES!!!

June Goals...

June has always been my workout harder and dig deeper month...we camp a lot in July and August. This year I will do more because I CAN!!! Hiking, biking, 2 rock climbs and a sky dive...it's going to be a good summer !!!!

1. Workouts - keep to schedule with my pump program(ST)...fell off the program for a bit now...it's time to get back to it...

2. BodyBalance or yoga warrior - 2 or 3X a week...

3. BodyCombat 3X a week - having a tough time getting back to it.

4. Morning Workouts - I really need to get this back on track!!

5. DIET - Really tracking and reviewing my food intake. Haven't been eating enough lately.

6. NO SNACKING - after 8pm...I've been really good for 7 days now. Need to keep it going.

7. Weight - To be down to 140 again!!!


On track and NO EXCUSES!!!

November Over?

I must say that I really haven't even had 2 minutes to myself in 16 days now...Literally!!!!

GOALS FOR NOVEMBER...

1. FOOD Choices - back to basics on low carb -- This has been hard for me this past month and I have no idea why...so I'm hoping by going back to basics I can figure it all out again
----------- NOT Good AT ALL this month...I had the intention of getting back to it every morning but my good intentions always seem to fall by the wayside...I haven't really gained any weight but I haven't lost any either...

2. INSANITY - Stick to the program...am a bit worried about boredom -- so am thinking I might add in BODYCOMBAT 3 times a week to spice it up.
----------- This is going GREAT...am actually really loving Round 2...maybe because I know what's going on...Round 1 was just plain hard work...this time round, I can put in a lot more effort...

3. BODYPUMP - 3 days a week
-----------Not finding it hard to stick to this one because...I LOVE BODYPUMP!!!

4. BLOG at least 4 times a week -- for the sanity of it all
-----------I always think this will be an easy goal and it always tends to be the hardest one...I was horrible at this again this month...but I will keep trying...

I had Dilyn home for 2 weeks this month...her operation went well but she is still whiny and clingy and just not getting better so I took her to the Doc and found out she has ear infections...well...so all is getting better...her talking is still wonky but it's getting better.I am Physically and mentally drained....so tired all the time. This has been such a hard week to even have the energy to complete my workouts...

Week 1...Nov. Goals...

GOALS FOR NOVEMBER...

1. FOOD Choices - back to basics on low carb -- This has been hard for me this past month and I have no idea why...so I'm hoping by going back to basics I can figure it all out again
----------- They were good this

2. INSANITY - Stick to the program...am a bit worried about boredom -- so am thinking I might add in BODYCOMBAT 3 times a week to spice it up.
----------- Have stuck with it even though I found out I will have to restart it on the 7th...going to see if they would consider starting on the 6th because the first day on the program is a rest day(totally weird) but I would love the rest days to land on Sundays...

3. BODYPUMP - 3 days a week
------------ Only made it twice this week...having trouble balancing my time...

4. BLOG at least 4 times a week -- for the sanity of it all
------------ Well If I count my Nov goal blog and this one...

So today is our family B-Day party for Devyn and Dilyn...everyone coming over...like the family ones because it's not such a big deal on the clean house thing...it's usually pretty clean(I am a Flybaby) and it's pretty organized but it seems like I'm always picking up after the kids and getting tired of it...

So NEW goal for the week....

I'm getting after my kids to put away and pick up after themselves...their not little anymore and it's really getting on my nerves....

NOVEMBER -- GOALS!!!!

This year has gone so fast...October ended in a blink...so November it is...I may be crazy but have started ROUND 2 on INSANITY. Have joined in a 60 day challenge with my Beachbody coach and few others on Facebook...should be interesting...

GOALS FOR NOVEMBER...

1. FOOD Choices - back to basics on low carb -- This has been hard for me this past month and I have no idea why...so I'm hoping by going back to basics I can figure it all out again

2. INSANITY - Stick to the program...am a bit worried about boredom -- so am thinking I might add in BODYCOMBAT 3 times a week to spice it up.

http://www.beachbody.com/product/fitness_programs/insanity.do

3. BODYPUMP - 3 days a week

http://www.beachbody.com/product/fitness_programs/les-mills-pump-workout.do

4. BLOG at least 4 times a week -- for the sanity of it all

That should take me through November with INSANITY up until the new year...I actually did miss my time with Shaun T -- we were just starting the love/hate relationship when it ended without a word...so I guess it's time to see where I stand with him

Hit 40 lbs lost mark...

I'm really bad at keeping my blog up to date....need to work on that...so a little catch up in order...

Hit my 40 lbs lost mark on Sept 30 -- but only .6 since then.
Finished my INSANITY program on Oct 15/11
Weigh in as of Oct 25/11 - 138.2

Another stressful week on the home front. Dilyn's surgery got canceled and threw a bit of loop into things...we had 2 volleyball tournaments - 9 games on Saturday alone...It was CRAZY...Devyn got a silver medal...and we were only running a little late to her soccer game...poor Dilyn though was so stir crazy by the time we got there she wouldn't sit still...up and down the bleachers...up and down the hallways...everyone was just staring...I finally stood up and told everyone that shes been sitting for 4 hours through volleyball games and this is like total freedom to her...everyone just nodded and left her alone...like everyone hasn't been there at one time or another...

We were supposed to go to Donovan's Scout Halloween Party on Wednesday but we never made it...Donovan failed another test...we had already pulled all electronics and TV...their was nothing else to do. Plus I found out today that he has a math test tomorrow...grrrrr

Anyway...the girls and I did facials and played Wipeout 2 on the Kinect for an hour and half and it Wiped Me OUT...

Today's is Devyn's 11th Birthday...but we celebrated yesterday because she is having a sleepover at her friends house tonight...we had her party 2 weeks ago because our weekends are fully booked until mid November...ACK!!!!

I need to break this cycle...

It seems to just be one big cycle....I eat really good all week and then the weekend hits...it's driving me crazy. I can't figure out why my will power flies out the window on the weekend. I try to avoid evrything but I think the only way to do that is to run...very far...

So I spend the week losing 2 lbs and 2 days gaining it back...It's got to stop but I don't know how to go about changing it. Our weekends are totally crazy around here in between all of the events and everything going on. It ends up being 6 or 7 by the time we get home and everyone's starving and we end up with pizza or throw together some nacho's or something else I shouldn't be eating....uuuhhhgggg

So frustrated....will work double hard this week...I just want to reach my 40 LBS lost mark...I still have another 10-15 I would like to lose but it's not going to happen if I don't figure out how to get off this crappy merry-go-round!!!!

A - Z of ME....

Seem this on so many blogs...really enjoy reading it so I thought I would finally do it...

A. Age - 42(43 in Dec)
B. Bed size - King(hubboes 6'4")
C. Chore you dislike - you name it...LOL
D. Dogs - 1 - Maggie - but looking for a puppy at the moment
E. Essential start to your day - Water
F. Favorite color - Black
G. Gold or silver - Silver
H. Height - 5'4"
I. Instruments you play(ed) - kazoo...lol...does that count?
J. Job title - MOM
K. Kids - 4
L. Live - Edmonton,Alberta,Canada
M. Mom's name - Marylyn
N. Nicknames - Jay and MOM...lol
O. Overnight hospital stays - only 2 - when I had my tonsils out...and only my first baby
P. Pet peeves - oh...wear to start...drivers(all of them) when someone says they will do something, then don't.
Q.uote from a movie -"Good...Bad...I'm the guy with the gun" -Army of Darness AND "The greatest trick the devil ever pulled, was convincing the world he didn't exist" - The Usual Suspects

R. Righty or Lefty - Righty
S. Siblings - 1 - younger brother
T. Time you wake up - 7:15 am
U. Underwear - sometimes...lol
V. Vegetables you don't like - brussel sprouts...YUCK
W. What makes you run late - did I mention 4 kids...
X. X-rays you've had - arm(6x),leg(4x),both knees, lungs
Y. Yummy food you make - lasagne and broccoli salad
Z. Zoo animal favorites - monkeys of course...

A little about me...

August Wrap -up!!!!!

I keep losing track of my days...it seems they just keep running together. Friday already...

Day 13 of Insanity done...Pure cardio - 60 minutes...uuuhhhggg - BUT 2 days of REST now

It was a pretty good week, busy but good...4 dentist appointments, 2 physicals, a new pink cast, and a sleep apnea test all done...plus getting a 5 year old to pee in a cup...she couldn't stop laughing so I'm sure you all know how that went

Weaknesses - tracking my food...I just can't seem to get back into it. Am doing good today though

Strength - I am going with...my ability to deal with my schedule being thrown into turmoil...I usually don't deal well with that...Proud of myself


Really liked getting points for spending time with my family...because otherwise I would have just ignored them like that's even possible!!!

So I did accomplish a couple of my goals...SORT OF..

1. I did an advanced yoga class rather then and advanced spin class...
2. I am organized for back to school...I know what I need to still buy...that's something...

Goals for the rest of September challenge:

1. Track all my food
2. Take an advanced spin class
3. Get my household organizer re-organized for back to school...
4. Redo my whiteboard with all the kids chores...

All in all a great week and here's hoping for an weigh in on Monday

Scouts Family Camp...

Had to put first that it was pouring rain on Friday most of the day...around 10:00 we have something called mug-ups in the cook shack...a late night snack with hot cocoa or juice- Bring your own Mug...hence the name.

We were all in the cook shack talking, laughing, drinking and huddling around the fire stove to stay warm. We all headed out about 10:30 for our campers and low and behold it was SNOWING...in JUNE!!!! couldn't believe it and all I wanted was a pic and stupid battery on my phone was really low and it wouldn't let me take one...GRRRRRRRRR

Saturday was better...took a bike through the town and around the side of the lake with all the summer cabins then back...It was spitting the whole time....
It got nicer as the day went on but not enough for canoeing The waves were unreal on the lake but we did get in archery and a 'Shorty hike' which was 2 hours of bush wack hiking...no paths. Up steep embankments and hills. We found some caverns we went exploring through and some huge sand dunes we were climbing. My knees were KILLING me but it was .

Nothing like camping when you don't have to entertain your kids or cook. It was so nice

What a couple days....

I have no idea what happened yesterday...I raked up all the dead grass from the front and back lawn...pretty sure that's why my arms are killing me today.
Came in for lunch...hubby took the kids to the park for a bit so I did my yoga...ouch...then I stuck in my Tai Chi for a cool down was only going to do about 15 minutes but ended up doing it all...
After supper we all went for a power walk...to the park and back...kids were loving all the park time...
Then the kids went to bed and hubby went to work out and I was bored...after all that I went and did my EZ 55 Turbofire...ended up with 205 min of cardio

To say the least I have no idea how the heck I had the energy but it was an abundance today to bike 21km to Rundle park...spent a couple hours with my daughter's kindergarten class and biked home. I had packed an extra shirt because I didn't know what the bike was going to do to me and it was a good thing I did because I was soaked ...good thing I packed a hat too because oh man you should have seen my hair.

Racking up those points now a shower and pick up the kids...grocery shopping tonight

I hope you all have a wonderful day

Friday weigh In...

YAY...the day is making my week so much better. I think the scale got tired of me kicking it around and decided to become my friend. It's about time...was wondering how much abuse it was going to take before it decided to cooperate

Down to 147 today...that's a loss of 2.2 lbs this week...YAY

My daughter has decided to just ignore me today...which really is good news. She has become very defiant and confrontational...not that that's new just become a little too much lately. She has the disrespect thing down pat and just not getting it...grrrrrrr So I had taken away her sleepover tonight hence the silent treatment...

BUT it's not going to take me down today...I feel great and I'm just plain happy...so life is what it is...

Day 30...

Day: 30 of Turbo Fire/Chalean Extreme Hybrid

Burn It Off and Extreme Abs

Love that workout but I need more....

Strength training done...cardio done. Might head out for a bike ride. Forecast of rain starting Thursday and running until next Thursday off and on.

Might put in some more later....we'll see how the bike ride goes

Weigh In this morning was 148.8...down .4 from Sundays weigh In.
Not minding these 3 day a week weigh Ins...they are keeping me on track that for sure.

That puts me at my 30 lbs lost goal...YAY