A Month in Review...

So surgery was on January 27th...It was a little scary considering it was also my first surgery ever...except my tonsils when I was five...lol

All went well...clear margins...they pulled 4 lymph nodes...but all looked good...was sore and tender for about a week and half...but by the two week mark I was feeling pretty good...had most of the motion back in my shoulder and I was only a little tender here and there...

My Cross Cancer Institute appointment was on February 19th...met with a wonderful Oncologist...he made everything so much easier...my tumor was grade 2/3...and aggressive which through onto the chemo road...also the family history...so Chemo it is...

Treatments start on March 7...hair will fall out 7-10 days after that :(  I went into prep mode this week...and cut my hair really short...won't be much to buzz when I have to...

So that is where I sit right now...

I need a seatbelt for my Wagon...

I’m sure a lot of people fall off the wagon….and I’m sure that most of us get right back on…

That was my day yesterday…Wednesday’s have always been a reward day…It’s weigh in day for my BLC group on Sparkpeople…so I have always taken it as a day to boost my carbs for a meal or 2 in the morning. Sometimes a few chips or something if that’s what I’m craving…It’s a day that helps me stay strong for the rest of the week…

Woke up…weighed in…down .2

Story of how these past few weeks are going…up, down, up, down…can’t call it a plateau…the scale is moving…seems to up more then down lately. I keep telling myself that maybe KETO just isn’t working for me. All I wanted for my cheat day was oatmeal…it was a fierce craving…it was so good…and I felt so good during my morning workout…could have gone for hours…I swear…

I have never been a huge breakfast…I’m a bulletproof coffee kinda gal…

So I decided this week to add in oatmeal(steel cut) 1/4 cup dry for breakfast every morning…before 9…we’ll see on Saturday for my weekend weigh in…and go from there…

I also had a banana…forgot what they even tasted like…and 2 spoons of gravy on my meatloaf…that too was yummy…and some S&V chips…not a bad trip off the wagon…could have been really bad since there are 3 bags of Halloween candy sitting there calling my name…lol

I hope you all have an AWESOME HALLOWEEN!!!!!   Be Good!!!

The Scale of my Obsession!!!

Is huge!!!
What is it with the numbers…every morning I moan and groan about stepping on the scale…every morning I think I’m going to skip it today…I know in my head that I don’t need to step on that contraption of bad news…make a coffee go sit down…ya right!!

So step onto the scale I do and there are those nasty numbers…up .2

Well then the parade of what did eat yesterday…going over everything…I already knew I didn’t eat enough calories…my protein was way down and my fats weren’t up enough…

I started the KETO diet a month back and have lost 5.4 lbs…very slowly…but to be fair I have been low carbing since January 2012. Have lost 42.8 lbs…yay!!  But hit a complete stall since June…I had put on 5 lbs over the 3 weeks of camping and now I just can’t shake it…no matter how spot on my diet is or how much I put out in sweat…so I thought Keto might be the answer…wasn’t a lot different from what I was doing…

Worked great for a week…now stalled again for the last 3…I’m going to start pre-planning all my meals…getting my macros a lot closer to what they should be…before I throw my hands up…2 more weeks…then I’ll measure everything including body fat% and go from there…

DAY 3 of The 30 day Real Time Challenge Done...BodyRock.TV...

I need to get back on track...

You know…I think about writing everyday but then I always just put it off…

I think it would be good for me to get everything down in writing…putting it all out there, so I know what I need to do to accomplish certain goals. I’m always thinking if I do this or do that…it would be a lot easier to see exactly where I am heading…

I need to put my foot down and just do it…no more putting it off…so I AM putting a reminder on my phone to go off everyday and make me get something down or something accomplished…anything, it doesn’t have to be a lot…so I did make a dream board with my 12 week goals…
So that’s where I’m starting…motivation and consistency are going to be a huge challenge for me…I have been very unmotivated lately…so I also started BODYROCK.TV’s Real time Challenge with Lisa and I absolutely LOVE it but mind you I’m only on Day 2…lol

We’ll see how much I love it on Day 10…

So Starting weight – 148.6

Working on the Plan...

So I'm working on the plan and it's still on track...

Step 1: Excellent...have NOT brought one single thing into the house. The kids didn't say a word about anything...good thing they like popcorn because that
 fruit and veggies are the only things for snacks in the house.

Step 2: I have only missed tracking for 1 day...and only off on my macro's 1 day too...wasn't feeling well.

Step 3: Workouts are still the same but I did get in a couple of kettlebell workouts...

So now I still have to get my workouts in order...so really need to work on step 3...

Now onto...

Step 4: I'm going to have to combine this with step 2...I may have did good on the tracking and staying in my macro's...BUT it still wasn't always the right
 food. So I'm going to have to dig deep just to get back on track...stay with in my macro's and stay to food that makes me feel good.

Step 5: Well that's a good question...
So far so good...taking it slowly and not calling myself every name in the book when I fall off plan a little bit...set my mind at the 75% mark and as long as I hit that...no complaints....

FINDING my motivation and will power...

So I’ve been going over everything that’s been going on lately and have decided that it’s time to work on finding my motivation and will power…it seems that I’ve been looking for it for a long time it’s just taken me a while, a long while to face it.

So where do you start…it seems like a 100 step process that I’m just not prepared for…so it’s going to be  one step at a time…

For me…

Step 1: Clean out the cupboards…this really wasn’t hard just a little heartbreaking…but bye bye junk…anything and everything is in the garbage…bag is tied and it’s sitting there waiting for the garbage man. Kids are going to have a bit of a fit but I’m sure it won’t last long…it never does.

So with step 1 accomplished it’s on to step 2…

Step 2: Tracking ALL food…it’s not that I ever really stopped tracking but I was just rounding and guessing at about 75% of it…so it’s time to pull the scale out again and start tracking everything. I need to know exactly what I’m eating to figure out exactly what’s going on.

Step 3: Workouts…I have been working out but have been stuck in a spin bike rut. I love it BUT I need to start switching it up again. I haven’t went to BodyCombat or BodyPump for a long time now and I really do need it. It always excited me and made me feel good…but the lazy side has taken over and I need to pack her up and ship her out!!!

Step 4:  STILL THINKING… needing ideas…
So we ended a 4 day flu lock down on Monday…it ran through the whole family…literally!! I spent a full 48 hrs in bed…well and the bathroom…lol…finally started moving around on Sunday night and am just starting to feel like myself again…except for the headaches. They are dragging out off and on for the past few days.

So that’s the start of my plan…still need to work on more but the basics are there…I will be finding my motivation and will power…it can’t hide forever!!!

June Goals...Update!!!

June has always been my workout harder and dig deeper month...we camp a lot in July and August. This year I will do more because I CAN!!! Hiking, biking, 2 rock climbs and a sky dive...it's going to be a good summer !!!!

1. Workouts - keep to schedule with my pump program(ST)...fell off the program for a bit now...it's time to get back to it...
*****I only hit it 1X this week...I know it's because I do ST while I'm on my spin bike and I'm done before I even get to PUMP...

2. BodyBalance or yoga warrior - 2 or 3X a week...
*****I hit them both 1X...yoga warrior is a killer...ouch!!

3. BodyCombat 3X a week - having a tough time getting back to it.
*****Only 1X...I wanted to a few times but couldn't manage it time wise...so sad...BUT there's always next week...

4. Morning Workouts - I really need to get this back on track!!
*****This is getting so much better...trying to have spin or combat done by lunch, sure has made life a little easier...

5. DIET - Really tracking and reviewing my food intake. Haven't been eating enough lately.
*****So I did start carb cycling again...and it's going alright. The scale is still inching down...but I did just start so I guess we'll see...

6. NO SNACKING - after 8pm...I've been really good for 7 days now. Need to keep it going.
*****A few slips but not enough to cry about...so that's good.

I am having a tough time sleeping some nights and am hoping it's just because I have been feeling a little overwhelmed...there's just so much going on. We have 6 birthdays this month and 2 of them I'm throwing...plus all the soccer games and practices. Plus trying to figure out where the money is coming from to cover some of it....uuuhhhggggg

So this month is a little soccer nuts...3 games a week plus a practice and 2 tourneys...yikes!!!
Will work through it all and pretty sure I will survive but it's going to take a lot of planning and organizing to get through it all!!!!


I have aligned some goals with my goals for BLC...on track and NO EXCUSES!!!

June Goals...

June has always been my workout harder and dig deeper month...we camp a lot in July and August. This year I will do more because I CAN!!! Hiking, biking, 2 rock climbs and a sky dive...it's going to be a good summer !!!!

1. Workouts - keep to schedule with my pump program(ST)...fell off the program for a bit now...it's time to get back to it...

2. BodyBalance or yoga warrior - 2 or 3X a week...

3. BodyCombat 3X a week - having a tough time getting back to it.

4. Morning Workouts - I really need to get this back on track!!

5. DIET - Really tracking and reviewing my food intake. Haven't been eating enough lately.

6. NO SNACKING - after 8pm...I've been really good for 7 days now. Need to keep it going.

7. Weight - To be down to 140 again!!!


On track and NO EXCUSES!!!

Hit 40 lbs lost mark...

I'm really bad at keeping my blog up to date....need to work on that...so a little catch up in order...

Hit my 40 lbs lost mark on Sept 30 -- but only .6 since then.
Finished my INSANITY program on Oct 15/11
Weigh in as of Oct 25/11 - 138.2

Another stressful week on the home front. Dilyn's surgery got canceled and threw a bit of loop into things...we had 2 volleyball tournaments - 9 games on Saturday alone...It was CRAZY...Devyn got a silver medal...and we were only running a little late to her soccer game...poor Dilyn though was so stir crazy by the time we got there she wouldn't sit still...up and down the bleachers...up and down the hallways...everyone was just staring...I finally stood up and told everyone that shes been sitting for 4 hours through volleyball games and this is like total freedom to her...everyone just nodded and left her alone...like everyone hasn't been there at one time or another...

We were supposed to go to Donovan's Scout Halloween Party on Wednesday but we never made it...Donovan failed another test...we had already pulled all electronics and TV...their was nothing else to do. Plus I found out today that he has a math test tomorrow...grrrrr

Anyway...the girls and I did facials and played Wipeout 2 on the Kinect for an hour and half and it Wiped Me OUT...

Today's is Devyn's 11th Birthday...but we celebrated yesterday because she is having a sleepover at her friends house tonight...we had her party 2 weeks ago because our weekends are fully booked until mid November...ACK!!!!

What a couple days....

I have no idea what happened yesterday...I raked up all the dead grass from the front and back lawn...pretty sure that's why my arms are killing me today.
Came in for lunch...hubby took the kids to the park for a bit so I did my yoga...ouch...then I stuck in my Tai Chi for a cool down was only going to do about 15 minutes but ended up doing it all...
After supper we all went for a power walk...to the park and back...kids were loving all the park time...
Then the kids went to bed and hubby went to work out and I was bored...after all that I went and did my EZ 55 Turbofire...ended up with 205 min of cardio

To say the least I have no idea how the heck I had the energy but it was an abundance today to bike 21km to Rundle park...spent a couple hours with my daughter's kindergarten class and biked home. I had packed an extra shirt because I didn't know what the bike was going to do to me and it was a good thing I did because I was soaked ...good thing I packed a hat too because oh man you should have seen my hair.

Racking up those points now a shower and pick up the kids...grocery shopping tonight

I hope you all have a wonderful day

Day 30...

Day: 30 of Turbo Fire/Chalean Extreme Hybrid

Burn It Off and Extreme Abs

Love that workout but I need more....

Strength training done...cardio done. Might head out for a bike ride. Forecast of rain starting Thursday and running until next Thursday off and on.

Might put in some more later....we'll see how the bike ride goes

Weigh In this morning was 148.8...down .4 from Sundays weigh In.
Not minding these 3 day a week weigh Ins...they are keeping me on track that for sure.

That puts me at my 30 lbs lost goal...YAY

Day 30...

Day: 30 of Turbo Fire/Chalean Extreme Hybrid

Burn It Off and Extreme Abs

Love that workout but I need more....

Strength training done...cardio done. Might head out for a bike ride. Forecast of rain starting Thursday and running until next Thursday off and on.

Might put in some more later....we'll see how the bike ride goes

Weigh In this morning was 148.8...down .4 from Sundays weigh In.
Not minding these 3 day a week weigh Ins...they are keeping me on track that for sure.

Have a great Tuesday all

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Day 33...

I really didn't think it was this long that I haven't posted. Life just gets the better of you sometimes. I know somedays it's just that I really have nothing to say...except #$%&@#!!!

Anyway...only lost .4 in the past few weeks. Mind you I'm pretty sure last or was it the week before? It was a gain by almost 4 pounds. That's what happens when it's just so easy to reach for a piece of pizza or have a little more Chinese food. Grab something on the way to 1 of 100 places we need to get to.

I have decided to switch over to the Chalean/TurboFire hybrid schedule starting on Monday. I think adding a more weights into my program will boost everything. I also have to start eating more. Most days I barely make my protein counts and that's what I need to boost. I blaming myself. I ran out of my protein bars and I haven't had time to make any so I need to get in that. There 23 grams of protein per bar and they always put my protein into range.

I guess that's my catch up for the last bit. Not looking forward to soccer season. It's always tough on everyone...5 games a week plus 4 practices. there's never anytime for anything. Will have to make sure I have my bars for that.

You all have a great day...and hopefully I'll check in tomorrow or soon anyway:)

Day 6...

Well it took a lot to even get up today...was feeling a little off yesterday but today IT'S HEERREEE...:( I've got a cold...it is so hard to workout when you have a cold, never mind figuring out were your going to find the energy...

It's only stretch 40 today so not too bad...

Finally getting in my calorie range. Am finding it hard. Had to add in some popcorn last night to get into my range. Am finding most of days are like that. I know it's because I'm not a big eater during the day. Heaven forbid if I had to cook for lunch...will never happen...lol Unless I can just zap it in the micro. I do soup a lot. Which is fine...or protein shakes...Yum...sometimes I go back to my old standby of multigrain cheerios...double yum. Yogurt with fruit. As long as there is no cooking involved I'll eat it. lol

Anyway...yesterday was good...lots of running around...dropping off kids, picking up kids, soccer registration, and a sleepover. It gets a little crazy when hubbies out of town. He's back for today then in Calgary tomorrow...then back!!!

It's been like this for a few weeks but were almost though it...yay

Took the kids to the circus on Friday night...it was AWESOME!!! I was shocked...last year was alright the year before was awful...so let's just say I was AWWWWW'ed...LOL

Family over for a BBQ tonight and that is it...

OH...tomorrow morning is weigh in for week 1...I'm scared...;P

O.K...

So I made a deal with myself. At least once a week...I will write in my blog. I look at it everyday and then go do something else. I think I'm trying to avoid it but I don't know why. It's a good place to let everything go because I know no one really cares how much we bitch and complain here.

That's what it's all about...right?

I've always liked my blog to let everything go and get it out. Keep track of what's working and what's not and to get feedback once in a while...which is always great...

So once a week no matter what....Fridays for sure for my way in and see if I can find my way back.

Weigh-In posted...got to love that...so glad I went back to low-carb...:)

OMG....

Where did the time go? It's been a while...my bad!!!

We have been doing some camping with our new/old tent trailer. It's the bomb, the furnace was worth everything...It's so nice not to even think about being cold at night...I love it. We aren't going camping for the rest of July...there's too much else going on. Birthdays for the next 2 weekends and then the Capital Ex...twice because we want to see Hedley too. Then it's our yearly friend or foe BBQ....which gets a little crazy but always a lot of fun.

Then were into August and it's camping every Thursday through Sunday. Should be a good summer.

The kids are in church camp until July 23 as well, which runs from 9-4 everyday. Kind of like their still in school...which is nice...makes summer not so crazy around here. I totally forgot to weigh in last week...it probably wasn't good anyway...I remember chips which always spells bad weigh in...lol

Need to look for new recipes for camping so I'm off...

Make it a good one...

Friday's Weigh-In...

I have no idea what happen to my post on Friday...it just went POOF!!!!

It was short so not much was missed...lol EXCEPT -2.4 pounds
I was so excited because I stepped on the scale Monday morning and it said 176. OMG!!!

Not good...but turned out so good :)

The weekend was totally crazy...that daughter of mine. She stresses me out so much...I just what to punch her in the nose...Grrrrrr
It's like you try so hard to make her happy that some days that's all it's about...making Darian happy...I think we are all at our wits end. It's not like it's ever good enough anyway. Her room is a whole new story...Grrrrrrrrrrrr

It's sitting at +30 C here today with no wind...dang we had snow 4 wks ago...lol Albertan weather always a surprise :)

Eating was in control mostly...I had 3 drinks though...so I guess we'll see how this week goes...

Hubby is out of town for 2 days this week so I always eat better...lol

Well enough for now...
Make It A Good One :)

I hate Fridays....

I knew I should have just skipped the weigh-in... 0.2 whoopee doo!!!!
I'm going to mope for a while then I'm going to bed...yes I'm stomping my feet...Grrrrrrrr

I'm back...

Well yesterday was interesting all round...first blogger went whack then my bike was acting up and wouldn't gear down from the lvl 14 my hubby rides at. I had to unplug it for an hour...then she was good to go.

We got our new elliptical but I'm not so sure about it. 30 minutes...and I was beat...sweating, my legs were killing me. It was hard!!! and only 87 calories...HOW CAN THAT BE? I didn't even want to look at it today so I went through one of the body combat workouts. I forgot how much I love them...

Eating was going good till those damn licorice nibs jumped into my hand. I ate a handful then called the kids up and told them they could eat the whole bag if they shared and took it out of the house :D

Other then that...I need to work a little harder at eating more during the day...tomorrow I'm going to add in a protein smoothie with my breakfast...try being the operative word!!!

Well I think that's it...oh...Dilyn has decided that she is NOT going to kindergarten...and that's the end of discussion. HER EXACT WORDS...LMAO...too cute :D

Make it a good one;)

I hate Fridays....

So weigh-in was not what I was expecting or hoping for. Down 0.6 of a lb. Well yippee doo. I was so good this week...no cheating. 3 workouts, an hour each. that's 1500 calories alone. I guess a loss is a loss...it drives me crazy that hubby can lose 6 lbs and I lose .6. What's with that? Grrrrrrrr...

OK...whining done. Family dance at my kids school tonight. That should be fun...

I think next week I'm going to try cutting a few carbs...at least with supper. During the day I don't really eat many so it's just supper I will have to work on. We are also going to pick up an elliptical next week...I'm looking forward to that. So I guess we'll wait and see what next week brings:)

I'm a little sad that all the shows are coming to an end for the season. What am I supposed to watch while I'm working out?

I am pissed that Numb3rs has been cancelled...also Miami Medical. I was really liking that!!!

OK...so on to another week. everyone have a great weekend...

Make it a good one:)