Started Chemo!!!

  So the first time a round was NOT a pleasant experience...in my head, I honestly thought it was going to be better...well It didn't turn out the way had played it out.

First week was rough...a lot of joint pain the worst being in my jaw. It caused ear aches which really sucked. Let me tell you...the heating pads were my best friends!!! At night was the worst...knee pain, back pain, jaw pain...OH MY!!

The second week...immune system at it's lowest brought on a doozy of a cold over night...it was rough for the first few days too...again not sleeping...couldn't breath...man am I ever going to catch a break??

Third week is looking alright...of curse it's that time of the month...lol...but that's easy...my hair is falling out all over the house...so it's shaving day today...except my head is so sore...I swear every follicle is pissed about something which makes me think maybe tomorrow...doesn't matter I guess...hats on...

So I am going to ask doc for some better pain meds just for that first week...it was a tough one...but who knows maybe this time won't be as bad...really wish I knew...

Weight is really bouncing around...down 5 lbs overnight...then up 3...then down 2...then up 4...it's kinda crazy...

I did start working out again...which it AWESOME...went to 1 spin class....kinda killed me...but I will go back...BUT I also went back to PiYo...forgot how much I love it....

Chalene Johnson has a PiYo program coming out in June....sooooo excited!!

The Scale of my Obsession!!!

Is huge!!!
What is it with the numbers…every morning I moan and groan about stepping on the scale…every morning I think I’m going to skip it today…I know in my head that I don’t need to step on that contraption of bad news…make a coffee go sit down…ya right!!

So step onto the scale I do and there are those nasty numbers…up .2

Well then the parade of what did eat yesterday…going over everything…I already knew I didn’t eat enough calories…my protein was way down and my fats weren’t up enough…

I started the KETO diet a month back and have lost 5.4 lbs…very slowly…but to be fair I have been low carbing since January 2012. Have lost 42.8 lbs…yay!!  But hit a complete stall since June…I had put on 5 lbs over the 3 weeks of camping and now I just can’t shake it…no matter how spot on my diet is or how much I put out in sweat…so I thought Keto might be the answer…wasn’t a lot different from what I was doing…

Worked great for a week…now stalled again for the last 3…I’m going to start pre-planning all my meals…getting my macros a lot closer to what they should be…before I throw my hands up…2 more weeks…then I’ll measure everything including body fat% and go from there…

DAY 3 of The 30 day Real Time Challenge Done...BodyRock.TV...

I need to get back on track...

You know…I think about writing everyday but then I always just put it off…

I think it would be good for me to get everything down in writing…putting it all out there, so I know what I need to do to accomplish certain goals. I’m always thinking if I do this or do that…it would be a lot easier to see exactly where I am heading…

I need to put my foot down and just do it…no more putting it off…so I AM putting a reminder on my phone to go off everyday and make me get something down or something accomplished…anything, it doesn’t have to be a lot…so I did make a dream board with my 12 week goals…
So that’s where I’m starting…motivation and consistency are going to be a huge challenge for me…I have been very unmotivated lately…so I also started BODYROCK.TV’s Real time Challenge with Lisa and I absolutely LOVE it but mind you I’m only on Day 2…lol

We’ll see how much I love it on Day 10…

So Starting weight – 148.6

Working on the Plan...

So I'm working on the plan and it's still on track...

Step 1: Excellent...have NOT brought one single thing into the house. The kids didn't say a word about anything...good thing they like popcorn because that
 fruit and veggies are the only things for snacks in the house.

Step 2: I have only missed tracking for 1 day...and only off on my macro's 1 day too...wasn't feeling well.

Step 3: Workouts are still the same but I did get in a couple of kettlebell workouts...

So now I still have to get my workouts in order...so really need to work on step 3...

Now onto...

Step 4: I'm going to have to combine this with step 2...I may have did good on the tracking and staying in my macro's...BUT it still wasn't always the right
 food. So I'm going to have to dig deep just to get back on track...stay with in my macro's and stay to food that makes me feel good.

Step 5: Well that's a good question...
So far so good...taking it slowly and not calling myself every name in the book when I fall off plan a little bit...set my mind at the 75% mark and as long as I hit that...no complaints....

Getting back into the swing of things....

Getting back into the swing of things seems to be the story of my life...

Summer always rolls around and my life turns into a chaotic mess...working around all the kids schedules mine seems to fall by the wayside. I have tried to stay up with my workout routines but some days it was nonexistent. Which put me in an awful mood some days. Then everyone is "Why are you so bitchy?" I try really hard to explain it to no avail. I'm just wasting my time and energy. So now I have spent the last  week catching up on me and ignoring every thing else...well not everything. It's kind of hard to ignore a 6 yr old that won't stop or leave me alone for 5 minutes. So we came up with a deal that if mommy has her earphones in then it's mommy time...worked a little better.

We came back from 2 weeks at the lake on Aug 4. I didn't step on the scale until the 6th. Was up 7.4 lbs. Which happens every year because it becomes a free for all for a couple weeks. Getting in everything that I haven't eaten in a very long time. And having it all in abundance. Planned and accepted.

So this week I'm down 4 lbs. Should be back to normal next week. It would have been easier if all the kids weren't home. A little more time to work out...and plan my meals a little better...but I'll take it and keep working at it.

So this week - back to spin at least 4X this week. I really want to get to BodyCombat but not sure if that's in the cards. Yoga at least 2X...I'm feeling so tight...

So here's to sticking to a plan without too many distractions....right...

June Goals...Update!!!

June has always been my workout harder and dig deeper month...we camp a lot in July and August. This year I will do more because I CAN!!! Hiking, biking, 2 rock climbs and a sky dive...it's going to be a good summer !!!!

1. Workouts - keep to schedule with my pump program(ST)...fell off the program for a bit now...it's time to get back to it...
*****I only hit it 1X this week...I know it's because I do ST while I'm on my spin bike and I'm done before I even get to PUMP...

2. BodyBalance or yoga warrior - 2 or 3X a week...
*****I hit them both 1X...yoga warrior is a killer...ouch!!

3. BodyCombat 3X a week - having a tough time getting back to it.
*****Only 1X...I wanted to a few times but couldn't manage it time wise...so sad...BUT there's always next week...

4. Morning Workouts - I really need to get this back on track!!
*****This is getting so much better...trying to have spin or combat done by lunch, sure has made life a little easier...

5. DIET - Really tracking and reviewing my food intake. Haven't been eating enough lately.
*****So I did start carb cycling again...and it's going alright. The scale is still inching down...but I did just start so I guess we'll see...

6. NO SNACKING - after 8pm...I've been really good for 7 days now. Need to keep it going.
*****A few slips but not enough to cry about...so that's good.

I am having a tough time sleeping some nights and am hoping it's just because I have been feeling a little overwhelmed...there's just so much going on. We have 6 birthdays this month and 2 of them I'm throwing...plus all the soccer games and practices. Plus trying to figure out where the money is coming from to cover some of it....uuuhhhggggg

So this month is a little soccer nuts...3 games a week plus a practice and 2 tourneys...yikes!!!
Will work through it all and pretty sure I will survive but it's going to take a lot of planning and organizing to get through it all!!!!


I have aligned some goals with my goals for BLC...on track and NO EXCUSES!!!

June Goals...

June has always been my workout harder and dig deeper month...we camp a lot in July and August. This year I will do more because I CAN!!! Hiking, biking, 2 rock climbs and a sky dive...it's going to be a good summer !!!!

1. Workouts - keep to schedule with my pump program(ST)...fell off the program for a bit now...it's time to get back to it...

2. BodyBalance or yoga warrior - 2 or 3X a week...

3. BodyCombat 3X a week - having a tough time getting back to it.

4. Morning Workouts - I really need to get this back on track!!

5. DIET - Really tracking and reviewing my food intake. Haven't been eating enough lately.

6. NO SNACKING - after 8pm...I've been really good for 7 days now. Need to keep it going.

7. Weight - To be down to 140 again!!!


On track and NO EXCUSES!!!

Getting on with it....

I honestly didn't realize that I disappeared for so long. No excuses...just life in general....but it;s time to get back to writing it down, I am an avid Sparkpeopler...I love that site. Just the groups and participation...make it such an AWESOME and fun site. So I have not fallen off the wagon but I have spent the last 5 or so months bouncing around between 146 and 155...up, down, up, down....

Well it's time to just keep it heading down. So writing out my food and workouts...and just everything I can think of to get back on track!!

So I finished Insanity for the second time back in January...or was it February?? lol  I moved on to RushFit for a bit...then I hurt my knee and was out for about 3 weeks...NOT good!!  I came back and started on Beachbody PUMP.  I love it at the gym but couldn't seem to stay interested in the one at home. So I bought a spin bike and have been addicted for the last 7 weeks. I know I have to start switching it up BUT....

More tomorrow...sleep tonight...

Week 1...Nov. Goals...

GOALS FOR NOVEMBER...

1. FOOD Choices - back to basics on low carb -- This has been hard for me this past month and I have no idea why...so I'm hoping by going back to basics I can figure it all out again
----------- They were good this

2. INSANITY - Stick to the program...am a bit worried about boredom -- so am thinking I might add in BODYCOMBAT 3 times a week to spice it up.
----------- Have stuck with it even though I found out I will have to restart it on the 7th...going to see if they would consider starting on the 6th because the first day on the program is a rest day(totally weird) but I would love the rest days to land on Sundays...

3. BODYPUMP - 3 days a week
------------ Only made it twice this week...having trouble balancing my time...

4. BLOG at least 4 times a week -- for the sanity of it all
------------ Well If I count my Nov goal blog and this one...

So today is our family B-Day party for Devyn and Dilyn...everyone coming over...like the family ones because it's not such a big deal on the clean house thing...it's usually pretty clean(I am a Flybaby) and it's pretty organized but it seems like I'm always picking up after the kids and getting tired of it...

So NEW goal for the week....

I'm getting after my kids to put away and pick up after themselves...their not little anymore and it's really getting on my nerves....

NOVEMBER -- GOALS!!!!

This year has gone so fast...October ended in a blink...so November it is...I may be crazy but have started ROUND 2 on INSANITY. Have joined in a 60 day challenge with my Beachbody coach and few others on Facebook...should be interesting...

GOALS FOR NOVEMBER...

1. FOOD Choices - back to basics on low carb -- This has been hard for me this past month and I have no idea why...so I'm hoping by going back to basics I can figure it all out again

2. INSANITY - Stick to the program...am a bit worried about boredom -- so am thinking I might add in BODYCOMBAT 3 times a week to spice it up.

http://www.beachbody.com/product/fitness_programs/insanity.do

3. BODYPUMP - 3 days a week

http://www.beachbody.com/product/fitness_programs/les-mills-pump-workout.do

4. BLOG at least 4 times a week -- for the sanity of it all

That should take me through November with INSANITY up until the new year...I actually did miss my time with Shaun T -- we were just starting the love/hate relationship when it ended without a word...so I guess it's time to see where I stand with him

Back to the hectic race I call life...

It snowed here on the weekend...can you believe that? It's the end of May and it's snowing. Crazy weather we Albertans are having. Soccer was called off once again, which was alright by me.

It's now June 2nd...snow is gone it's warmed up...although it is quite windy, and soccer is on in full force. 2 games tonight, 2 tomorrow, 2 on Friday and 2 on Saturday...playing catch-up is always so much fun....lol

I have been doing good eating wise. Haven't really had any food in the house because we didn't go grocery shopping...but we managed to squeeze it in yesterday in between pick-ups and drop-offs for soccer practices and girl guides. So now there is plenty of food in the house. I don't know if that's a good thing...but not one word when they didn't see any cookies. I have always bought one bag for the kids for lunch snacks, this time I bought 4 big packs of rice cakes and no complaints. I guess we'll see in time...lol

I did get in my 3 days last week for my workouts and I know I will this week too. I really wanted to pick up our new elliptical yesterday but hubby thought having food in the house was more important...lol

So hopefully sometime this week, I'm really looking forward to something other then the bike...

I have to say that I am in love with the new 'Satisfaction Yogurt' I crave it...so weird. The red fruits with muesli is so delish....

Well I'm going to head for the bike and see if I can manage 90 minutes today...fingers crossed...

Make it a good one...:)

I love Mondays...

Who knew... Mondays are my quietest day of the week. I have to vacuum and do ONE load of laundry. Yes I said one load of laundry. I have finally gotten the hang of the one load a day thing...except on Wednesday when I need to wash the bedding...I HATE Wednesdays.

I had a pretty good weekend except when the damn dog decided to pee on the bed....Grrrrrrrr

We only had 1 practice Saturday and 1 game Sunday. My poor DD, they don't even have a full team so there was only one sub. It was cold and rained for about 30 minutes. She played the whole game. 90 minutes on defence with the ball in their end for ohhhh 85 minutes of the game. It wasn't pretty I must say....:( She did run her little heart out.

My son was camping at Fort Edmonton Park all weekend with the Scouts so that made everything a little easier...and quieter:)

I ate under calories all meals except one...lasagne....I did have 1.5 pieces at 340+170 = way too much for supper. I might have been alright if I would have skipped lunch...lol

Anyway the rest was good and hopefully that didn't add too much to the nasty scale on Friday...

Oh just so u know...I hate Fridays...:P

Make it a good one:)

A little stressed...

I do feel a little stressed lately. Everyone kept telling me it was fun to look for houses...so why am I not having any fun? Maybe when I can actually find a few that I like. There are always parts I like in every house, but finding a house that I like more then 20% of... is near impossible. It's stressing me out...and I'm eating too many almonds.

Anyway...I did get on the bike today but only for 20 minutes...my little one woke early and wasn't feeling well...so that was the end of that. The kids have teacher's convention for the next 2 days so it might be hard to get time, but I will do it:)

Teriyaki steak tonight. Not sure yet...I only had dark soy sauce so I mixed in some water but it still smells very potent, I guess we'll see...

So that's it for now...
Make it a good one:)

Weekend went well...

I did make a promise to go back to exercising...so that has been my new goal for this week. I decided to go back to my stationary bike since I've never really had to many problems getting my butt on it. So I put in 30 minutes yesterday and 45 minutes today....YAY!!

The weekend went pretty good. I had a few things I probably shouldn't have, but I found if I don't have a little of that something I'm really craving...I binge sometimes. So I had 2 cabbage rolls and a few pea pods. Otherwise I did good...skipped dessert and had some almonds instead...I always keep a few snack bags in my purse.

It was a really nice weekend. I've really missed Auntie Emily it was nice to see her again. I did have a few moments of anger...My sister and brother in law were there as well and talking about the house their going to put an offer on. You would think I would be happy for them, but I wasn't. I felt angry. Chris and I have been talking about a house(our first since August last year. We started really looking in September. We decided to wait until now. With 4 kids we are trying to really stay within our budget. Under 280K would be nice, and in they walk telling us about the house their buying...320K. I know they are a double income family with no kids but for some reason it really pissed me off. I'm still trying to figure out why. I want to chalk it up to jealousy but I really don't think it is. I think it's just that I always start to feel like second best. That nothing I ever do will be quite good enough. When we finally do get a house you know it just won't be as good as theirs is. It's always been like this...you think I would be used to it by now. Ahhhhh....whatever:)

Anyway...that's all for now...
Make it a good one:)