Started Chemo!!!

  So the first time a round was NOT a pleasant experience...in my head, I honestly thought it was going to be better...well It didn't turn out the way had played it out.

First week was rough...a lot of joint pain the worst being in my jaw. It caused ear aches which really sucked. Let me tell you...the heating pads were my best friends!!! At night was the worst...knee pain, back pain, jaw pain...OH MY!!

The second week...immune system at it's lowest brought on a doozy of a cold over night...it was rough for the first few days too...again not sleeping...couldn't breath...man am I ever going to catch a break??

Third week is looking alright...of curse it's that time of the month...lol...but that's easy...my hair is falling out all over the house...so it's shaving day today...except my head is so sore...I swear every follicle is pissed about something which makes me think maybe tomorrow...doesn't matter I guess...hats on...

So I am going to ask doc for some better pain meds just for that first week...it was a tough one...but who knows maybe this time won't be as bad...really wish I knew...

Weight is really bouncing around...down 5 lbs overnight...then up 3...then down 2...then up 4...it's kinda crazy...

I did start working out again...which it AWESOME...went to 1 spin class....kinda killed me...but I will go back...BUT I also went back to PiYo...forgot how much I love it....

Chalene Johnson has a PiYo program coming out in June....sooooo excited!!

I need a seatbelt for my Wagon...

I’m sure a lot of people fall off the wagon….and I’m sure that most of us get right back on…

That was my day yesterday…Wednesday’s have always been a reward day…It’s weigh in day for my BLC group on Sparkpeople…so I have always taken it as a day to boost my carbs for a meal or 2 in the morning. Sometimes a few chips or something if that’s what I’m craving…It’s a day that helps me stay strong for the rest of the week…

Woke up…weighed in…down .2

Story of how these past few weeks are going…up, down, up, down…can’t call it a plateau…the scale is moving…seems to up more then down lately. I keep telling myself that maybe KETO just isn’t working for me. All I wanted for my cheat day was oatmeal…it was a fierce craving…it was so good…and I felt so good during my morning workout…could have gone for hours…I swear…

I have never been a huge breakfast…I’m a bulletproof coffee kinda gal…

So I decided this week to add in oatmeal(steel cut) 1/4 cup dry for breakfast every morning…before 9…we’ll see on Saturday for my weekend weigh in…and go from there…

I also had a banana…forgot what they even tasted like…and 2 spoons of gravy on my meatloaf…that too was yummy…and some S&V chips…not a bad trip off the wagon…could have been really bad since there are 3 bags of Halloween candy sitting there calling my name…lol

I hope you all have an AWESOME HALLOWEEN!!!!!   Be Good!!!

The Scale of my Obsession!!!

Is huge!!!
What is it with the numbers…every morning I moan and groan about stepping on the scale…every morning I think I’m going to skip it today…I know in my head that I don’t need to step on that contraption of bad news…make a coffee go sit down…ya right!!

So step onto the scale I do and there are those nasty numbers…up .2

Well then the parade of what did eat yesterday…going over everything…I already knew I didn’t eat enough calories…my protein was way down and my fats weren’t up enough…

I started the KETO diet a month back and have lost 5.4 lbs…very slowly…but to be fair I have been low carbing since January 2012. Have lost 42.8 lbs…yay!!  But hit a complete stall since June…I had put on 5 lbs over the 3 weeks of camping and now I just can’t shake it…no matter how spot on my diet is or how much I put out in sweat…so I thought Keto might be the answer…wasn’t a lot different from what I was doing…

Worked great for a week…now stalled again for the last 3…I’m going to start pre-planning all my meals…getting my macros a lot closer to what they should be…before I throw my hands up…2 more weeks…then I’ll measure everything including body fat% and go from there…

DAY 3 of The 30 day Real Time Challenge Done...BodyRock.TV...

I need to get back on track...

You know…I think about writing everyday but then I always just put it off…

I think it would be good for me to get everything down in writing…putting it all out there, so I know what I need to do to accomplish certain goals. I’m always thinking if I do this or do that…it would be a lot easier to see exactly where I am heading…

I need to put my foot down and just do it…no more putting it off…so I AM putting a reminder on my phone to go off everyday and make me get something down or something accomplished…anything, it doesn’t have to be a lot…so I did make a dream board with my 12 week goals…
So that’s where I’m starting…motivation and consistency are going to be a huge challenge for me…I have been very unmotivated lately…so I also started BODYROCK.TV’s Real time Challenge with Lisa and I absolutely LOVE it but mind you I’m only on Day 2…lol

We’ll see how much I love it on Day 10…

So Starting weight – 148.6

Working on the Plan...

So I'm working on the plan and it's still on track...

Step 1: Excellent...have NOT brought one single thing into the house. The kids didn't say a word about anything...good thing they like popcorn because that
 fruit and veggies are the only things for snacks in the house.

Step 2: I have only missed tracking for 1 day...and only off on my macro's 1 day too...wasn't feeling well.

Step 3: Workouts are still the same but I did get in a couple of kettlebell workouts...

So now I still have to get my workouts in order...so really need to work on step 3...

Now onto...

Step 4: I'm going to have to combine this with step 2...I may have did good on the tracking and staying in my macro's...BUT it still wasn't always the right
 food. So I'm going to have to dig deep just to get back on track...stay with in my macro's and stay to food that makes me feel good.

Step 5: Well that's a good question...
So far so good...taking it slowly and not calling myself every name in the book when I fall off plan a little bit...set my mind at the 75% mark and as long as I hit that...no complaints....

FINDING my motivation and will power...

So I’ve been going over everything that’s been going on lately and have decided that it’s time to work on finding my motivation and will power…it seems that I’ve been looking for it for a long time it’s just taken me a while, a long while to face it.

So where do you start…it seems like a 100 step process that I’m just not prepared for…so it’s going to be  one step at a time…

For me…

Step 1: Clean out the cupboards…this really wasn’t hard just a little heartbreaking…but bye bye junk…anything and everything is in the garbage…bag is tied and it’s sitting there waiting for the garbage man. Kids are going to have a bit of a fit but I’m sure it won’t last long…it never does.

So with step 1 accomplished it’s on to step 2…

Step 2: Tracking ALL food…it’s not that I ever really stopped tracking but I was just rounding and guessing at about 75% of it…so it’s time to pull the scale out again and start tracking everything. I need to know exactly what I’m eating to figure out exactly what’s going on.

Step 3: Workouts…I have been working out but have been stuck in a spin bike rut. I love it BUT I need to start switching it up again. I haven’t went to BodyCombat or BodyPump for a long time now and I really do need it. It always excited me and made me feel good…but the lazy side has taken over and I need to pack her up and ship her out!!!

Step 4:  STILL THINKING… needing ideas…
So we ended a 4 day flu lock down on Monday…it ran through the whole family…literally!! I spent a full 48 hrs in bed…well and the bathroom…lol…finally started moving around on Sunday night and am just starting to feel like myself again…except for the headaches. They are dragging out off and on for the past few days.

So that’s the start of my plan…still need to work on more but the basics are there…I will be finding my motivation and will power…it can’t hide forever!!!

June Goals...Update!!!

June has always been my workout harder and dig deeper month...we camp a lot in July and August. This year I will do more because I CAN!!! Hiking, biking, 2 rock climbs and a sky dive...it's going to be a good summer !!!!

1. Workouts - keep to schedule with my pump program(ST)...fell off the program for a bit now...it's time to get back to it...
*****I only hit it 1X this week...I know it's because I do ST while I'm on my spin bike and I'm done before I even get to PUMP...

2. BodyBalance or yoga warrior - 2 or 3X a week...
*****I hit them both 1X...yoga warrior is a killer...ouch!!

3. BodyCombat 3X a week - having a tough time getting back to it.
*****Only 1X...I wanted to a few times but couldn't manage it time wise...so sad...BUT there's always next week...

4. Morning Workouts - I really need to get this back on track!!
*****This is getting so much better...trying to have spin or combat done by lunch, sure has made life a little easier...

5. DIET - Really tracking and reviewing my food intake. Haven't been eating enough lately.
*****So I did start carb cycling again...and it's going alright. The scale is still inching down...but I did just start so I guess we'll see...

6. NO SNACKING - after 8pm...I've been really good for 7 days now. Need to keep it going.
*****A few slips but not enough to cry about...so that's good.

I am having a tough time sleeping some nights and am hoping it's just because I have been feeling a little overwhelmed...there's just so much going on. We have 6 birthdays this month and 2 of them I'm throwing...plus all the soccer games and practices. Plus trying to figure out where the money is coming from to cover some of it....uuuhhhggggg

So this month is a little soccer nuts...3 games a week plus a practice and 2 tourneys...yikes!!!
Will work through it all and pretty sure I will survive but it's going to take a lot of planning and organizing to get through it all!!!!


I have aligned some goals with my goals for BLC...on track and NO EXCUSES!!!

June Goals...

June has always been my workout harder and dig deeper month...we camp a lot in July and August. This year I will do more because I CAN!!! Hiking, biking, 2 rock climbs and a sky dive...it's going to be a good summer !!!!

1. Workouts - keep to schedule with my pump program(ST)...fell off the program for a bit now...it's time to get back to it...

2. BodyBalance or yoga warrior - 2 or 3X a week...

3. BodyCombat 3X a week - having a tough time getting back to it.

4. Morning Workouts - I really need to get this back on track!!

5. DIET - Really tracking and reviewing my food intake. Haven't been eating enough lately.

6. NO SNACKING - after 8pm...I've been really good for 7 days now. Need to keep it going.

7. Weight - To be down to 140 again!!!


On track and NO EXCUSES!!!

Getting on with it....

I honestly didn't realize that I disappeared for so long. No excuses...just life in general....but it;s time to get back to writing it down, I am an avid Sparkpeopler...I love that site. Just the groups and participation...make it such an AWESOME and fun site. So I have not fallen off the wagon but I have spent the last 5 or so months bouncing around between 146 and 155...up, down, up, down....

Well it's time to just keep it heading down. So writing out my food and workouts...and just everything I can think of to get back on track!!

So I finished Insanity for the second time back in January...or was it February?? lol  I moved on to RushFit for a bit...then I hurt my knee and was out for about 3 weeks...NOT good!!  I came back and started on Beachbody PUMP.  I love it at the gym but couldn't seem to stay interested in the one at home. So I bought a spin bike and have been addicted for the last 7 weeks. I know I have to start switching it up BUT....

More tomorrow...sleep tonight...

November Over?

I must say that I really haven't even had 2 minutes to myself in 16 days now...Literally!!!!

GOALS FOR NOVEMBER...

1. FOOD Choices - back to basics on low carb -- This has been hard for me this past month and I have no idea why...so I'm hoping by going back to basics I can figure it all out again
----------- NOT Good AT ALL this month...I had the intention of getting back to it every morning but my good intentions always seem to fall by the wayside...I haven't really gained any weight but I haven't lost any either...

2. INSANITY - Stick to the program...am a bit worried about boredom -- so am thinking I might add in BODYCOMBAT 3 times a week to spice it up.
----------- This is going GREAT...am actually really loving Round 2...maybe because I know what's going on...Round 1 was just plain hard work...this time round, I can put in a lot more effort...

3. BODYPUMP - 3 days a week
-----------Not finding it hard to stick to this one because...I LOVE BODYPUMP!!!

4. BLOG at least 4 times a week -- for the sanity of it all
-----------I always think this will be an easy goal and it always tends to be the hardest one...I was horrible at this again this month...but I will keep trying...

I had Dilyn home for 2 weeks this month...her operation went well but she is still whiny and clingy and just not getting better so I took her to the Doc and found out she has ear infections...well...so all is getting better...her talking is still wonky but it's getting better.I am Physically and mentally drained....so tired all the time. This has been such a hard week to even have the energy to complete my workouts...

Friday weigh In...

YAY...the day is making my week so much better. I think the scale got tired of me kicking it around and decided to become my friend. It's about time...was wondering how much abuse it was going to take before it decided to cooperate

Down to 147 today...that's a loss of 2.2 lbs this week...YAY

My daughter has decided to just ignore me today...which really is good news. She has become very defiant and confrontational...not that that's new just become a little too much lately. She has the disrespect thing down pat and just not getting it...grrrrrrr So I had taken away her sleepover tonight hence the silent treatment...

BUT it's not going to take me down today...I feel great and I'm just plain happy...so life is what it is...

Day 32...

Push Circuit 2 - Stretch 10

Awesome workout. It didn't help calm the body or mind but it did help get out some of the aggravation...

It's been stressful around here...I think it's hubbies time of month...he's been such a jerk lately...I don't even know what to say and more problems with my 13 yr old daughter...grrrrrrrr

Might have to put in some Body Combat so I can beat up the air and get out more anger...

Anyway...only 1 soccer game tonight so that's a blessing

Day 30...

Day: 30 of Turbo Fire/Chalean Extreme Hybrid

Burn It Off and Extreme Abs

Love that workout but I need more....

Strength training done...cardio done. Might head out for a bike ride. Forecast of rain starting Thursday and running until next Thursday off and on.

Might put in some more later....we'll see how the bike ride goes

Weigh In this morning was 148.8...down .4 from Sundays weigh In.
Not minding these 3 day a week weigh Ins...they are keeping me on track that for sure.

That puts me at my 30 lbs lost goal...YAY

Day 9,10, 11, 12 and 13...

I think the days are disappearing on me...yikes...

Not doing to well with writing everyday but I am tracking everyday.

I've also been really good keeping to my workout program. Except yesterday. On Thursday night a full blown cold rolled in out of no where. One minute I was feeling fine the next horrible. Stuffy nose, runny eyes...and a sore throat. Well I woke up feeling just as bad and I had a sore tummy:( It's always something...or at least it feels that way...

Feeling a little better today...hubby took the kids bowling so I could get a little piece....And a nice hot bath...

So I'm off for a day of trying to get everything back on track;)

Make it a good one:)