IT'S TIME!!!

So I keep telling myself it's time...time to keep up with the blog...time to keep up with writing and getting it all out there. Time to get back to reading...Time to get a job. So again...I'm saying it!! IT'S TIME!!

It's been over a year...how does that happen?? A YEAR!! Really??

I had my ONE YEAR cancer free anniversary, but I'm still finding it so hard to move on...why is that??  I'm always expecting and waiting for it to come back. I know it'll just take time...it's just time I feel like I'm wasting...

So back to the grindstone on weight loss!!

I moved on and comfortably into the 5:2 diet. Read about it!. It's one I don't have to fight with or even really think about...I made a list of foods I can eat and different ideas for low cal snacks and meals...I have to admit it's working. Last year put me back up at 178 when I weighed in in January.YIKES!!!

Didn't do anything about though for a couple months...I was having some severe issues with my immune system...sick all the time...it wasn't fun...Docs just said it's going to take time...so finally in April, I wasn't sick as often and my energy was starting to come back. In May I decided it was time to get back to it!!

I went back to low carb and dropped 12 lbs that first 2 week...then nothing...stayed on it and really strict for almost 6 weeks...finally got frustrated and decided to look into something else...the 5:2 was the one that made the most sense to me...BUT counting calories again...hmmmmmm.

Decided it was totally worth it and the weight started coming off...the first week was hard but after that it came pretty easy. I can pick and choose my days, which I LOVE and that's makes it so easy. I still don't eat a ton of carbs but I can...without my weight jumping 5 lbs in a day...

I have to say that I'm happy with how things are working out....I weighed in this morning at 151. I am so looking forward to seeing the 140's on the scale again.

OH and my hair grew in curly sometimes...straight others...and funky...but it's mine...lol

3rd Chemo done...and Good News!!

So we found out that my body is accepting full doses of the chemo and won't have to be split...

So I was cut from the 8 treatments they thought I might have to do down to 4!!! Can you whoop, whoop with me...do a little happy dance!!

Best news I heard this year...

So 3rd treatment was yesterday...only 1 more to go on May 9th...

I have an appointment with the radiologist on April 28th...to discuss the radiation...not sure on how long after chemo you can do it...wouldn't mind if they put it off a bit...so I can enjoy the camping season...

It sure is nice to actually see an end in sight...

Doing alright so far...seem to have a cold again...grrrr...was fine yesterday...headache and tired...nausea not to bad yet but stomach is sure bubbling...guess we'll see...

((HUGS))

Sporting the crazy bald look...lol!!

2nd Chemo...much easier so far!!

  Well we got the penthouse yesterday at the Cross…it was smaller and much quieter…the nurse was a little frantic when we arrived…the others were on break…but we were made comfortable as always…the nurses are always so wonderful there…

I was left with a bit of a mark still from my last I.V…all the fishing…she used the vein on the top of my arm…she kept saying ” oh this is going to be tricky…like three times” I gritted my teeth and she was literally done t was so in 5 seconds…It was so AWESOME…never in my life…my heart rate had jumped to 108 i was so worried…

With that done all went smoothly…no allergic reaction…woohoo…easy peasy…then home…not to bad most of the night…no appetite…mouth feels like cotton...had to take the emergency anti nausea pill…still upset when I went to bed…took a sleeping pill…and it was still after 2 am before I slept…was sick a couple times in the night…that was new…woke up at 10am and I feel like I’m in a fog…still nauseous but it could be worse…

So hubby took the kids out and I’m gonna crash!!

Ohh…Doc was so awesome…got morphine for the joint pain this time around….sleeping pills and the medicated mouthwash….

I also shaved my head last week…all gone…used to it now…and am actually enjoying it!! Who knew ??

Started Chemo!!!

  So the first time a round was NOT a pleasant experience...in my head, I honestly thought it was going to be better...well It didn't turn out the way had played it out.

First week was rough...a lot of joint pain the worst being in my jaw. It caused ear aches which really sucked. Let me tell you...the heating pads were my best friends!!! At night was the worst...knee pain, back pain, jaw pain...OH MY!!

The second week...immune system at it's lowest brought on a doozy of a cold over night...it was rough for the first few days too...again not sleeping...couldn't breath...man am I ever going to catch a break??

Third week is looking alright...of curse it's that time of the month...lol...but that's easy...my hair is falling out all over the house...so it's shaving day today...except my head is so sore...I swear every follicle is pissed about something which makes me think maybe tomorrow...doesn't matter I guess...hats on...

So I am going to ask doc for some better pain meds just for that first week...it was a tough one...but who knows maybe this time won't be as bad...really wish I knew...

Weight is really bouncing around...down 5 lbs overnight...then up 3...then down 2...then up 4...it's kinda crazy...

I did start working out again...which it AWESOME...went to 1 spin class....kinda killed me...but I will go back...BUT I also went back to PiYo...forgot how much I love it....

Chalene Johnson has a PiYo program coming out in June....sooooo excited!!

A Month in Review...

So surgery was on January 27th...It was a little scary considering it was also my first surgery ever...except my tonsils when I was five...lol

All went well...clear margins...they pulled 4 lymph nodes...but all looked good...was sore and tender for about a week and half...but by the two week mark I was feeling pretty good...had most of the motion back in my shoulder and I was only a little tender here and there...

My Cross Cancer Institute appointment was on February 19th...met with a wonderful Oncologist...he made everything so much easier...my tumor was grade 2/3...and aggressive which through onto the chemo road...also the family history...so Chemo it is...

Treatments start on March 7...hair will fall out 7-10 days after that :(  I went into prep mode this week...and cut my hair really short...won't be much to buzz when I have to...

So that is where I sit right now...