Sunday, January 19, 2014

Everything feels so out of Control!!!

Everyday I wake up feeling exhausted…doesn’t matter how much I sleep or don’t sleep(which is more likely)…I just never feel like I’ve slept at all….I know at the moment there is s much going on that it’s really hard t shut my brain down…have been resorting to melatonin just to fall asleep…but you gotta do what ya gotta do…

Surgery is scheduled for the 27th…tomorrow is pre-admin…3hours…really??

Then we wait again…2 weeks to get the results of the tumor and lymph node biopsy’s then another 2/4 weeks to go to the cross cancer for radiation and or chemo…but everything hinges on the results of the biopsy…

Will be holding my breath…am still stress eating…and shaking my head and hating myself every step of the way…so more excuses…cutting the crap tomorrow…!!!

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